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My soldier can have his cigar and smoke it too.
By Jesse | March 23, 2008
Here is a contest entry from Maritza about her cigar smoking husband.
I have silently watched my husband as he sits in the balcony smoking his cigar. He looks so calm, even though the spicy Cuban music is playing in his ears. I remember the days when he was in the army, always so stressed to the edge of exploding. All the running around, not eating on time, never enough sleep and worse, that constant threat of separating him from his home. To me it seemed like it would never be over, even though we both believed in sacrificing what we had to, for the love of our country. That sacrifice comes with a lot of constant fear and tears.
Now those days are behind “us”, others are carrying the heavy but appreciated cross. But as I watch him smoke his cigar I can’t help but to wonder, why am I so blessed that his orders were always for duties within our territory. The work was hard and the hours ridiculously long, but I never had to see him go to the middle of any conflict. I know what is like to go to a Christmas Formal that started with a prayer for the loss of a soldier, that lost his life on the road driving to pick up a young man that would join the service the next day. I saw the suffering of his wife, it made my insides tremble and she was only one of many. So I dare not interrupt my husbands’ still-moments of silence with his cigar. I watch him go in his humidor, like a little boy goes through his collection of the coolest Hot Wheels and cannot quickly make up his mind about which one is his favorite. He then goes to the balcony to start his ritual…Guillotine at hand and thoughtfully cutting that cigar, next he carefully lights it waving his lighter in circles to make sure it lights but doesn’t burn. Then he sits back and as he slowly puffs he sinks into this trance-like. I don’t think he is really thinking, I think he just goes no where, he just goes into the “Here and Now” where calm and peace really exist. In the “Now” one doesn’t really think about past or future, you are not nostalgic about the past and you do not “want” anything which that would be the future. I bet his cigar smoking does him better than any fancy therapy or addicting medication.
In my house my soldier can ” HAVE HIS CIGARS AND SMOKE THEM TOO”! Well in the balcony :-) that is, but I make sure he has his good music, excellent reading material and delicious Cafe’. Recently I was criticized by a “friend”, she accused me of treating him like a child, that I spoil him. Well, maybe she is right, but I bet that any woman that has lost a loving partner would love to just have him back at least for one more day. To just look at him in silence even if there are no words, but just to “KNOW” that he is there.
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